33, social worker, feminist, and avid learner. From Newfoundland, one of the most beautiful provinces, and sometimes one of the most kind. This tumblr thing is kind of new to me even though I've been doing it for awhile now. One of the things I love is that I feel more free to be me here and not feel so apologetic. I've been married for 8 years, and together for 9, sometimes it blows my mind we've been together this long and other times it feels like forever ;) but in a good way!Send me your questions! Submit
Is working for me. I feel more relaxed as I’m going to bed, my brain is definitely quieter for the most part although last night as I texted a friend “My body is all sleeeeep and my brain is all PAAAARTAY!”. Then he said he was struggling with the same thing. So there’s that lol. For the record I don’t usually text either but last night the chance of sleep was slim to hell hath frozen over.
Though my insomnia has improved with the no electronics at least an hour before bed. That isn’t to say that it will work for everyone who suffers, or that it will fix others sleep solutions but for me? It is helping and that’s the whole point. Just like in 2001 when I cut out caffeinated beverages, and started drinking diet 7 up, 7up or decaf tea. It worked for me, and yes I know there is caffeine still in decaf tea and that they can’t get it all out but on the other hand it has helped me tremendously that I don’t mainline it like I use to. Trust me, I use to drink coke by the gallons, but since stopping? I don’t miss it.
On another note, I really dislike when someone tells me that x,y,z worked for them and if I did it too I’d see the same results. Uh…no. Also just because x,y.z worked for you doesn’t mean its going to work for anyone else or even in the same way. I think if people were more accepting of people’s differences in this world we wouldn’t be in such a mess.
I’ve been struggling lately with a number of things. Mostly how to resolve in my head that the chronic pain issues that I have are not going away. I have struggled since I was 2 and a 1/2 with pain. I have been to many specialists, had multiple tests, been poked, prodded and have had tubes shoved down my throat at age 7. After all of that, the end result is: “You have pain and inflammation somewhere in your body but we can’t tell you where or what the cause is….”
I also have been recently within the last year diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder and have been on medication for same. It has helped a lot for me, that plus counseling. I am beginning to take care of me which is always a good thing. I’ve started saying no to things that I either cannot do or will wipe me out in the longterm.
Part of what sort of turned it all around was talking to a friend of mine about the BS of being injured and how people think you’re having a freaking picnic because you’re off work. It really sucks because having my back injured and being off work was not pleasant. I would have traded anyone being laid up on my back in pain, only barely touched by pain medication. No, it was not fun, not I was not lucky, no I did not enjoy my time off being in misery, no I did not like the fact that for two months I was not earning any income whatsoever and had to rely on savings.
So I learned when to say no, I learned when to take time for me and to do what I needed to do. One thing people who do not have chronic conditions don’t seem to realize is the finite amount of energy we have. We are not being selfish by saying no or taking care of ourselves. I wish more people realized that as I cannot fit your ideals or anyone else. Also, because I did it yesterday definitely does not mean I can do it today.
It has been a struggle as it affects everything in my life. A friend of mine posted on FB about the ALS challenge and how its a slacktivism activity and how there are more ‘worthy’ things you can do for a cause. I called him out or the article out about the abelist language. Not everyone can just ‘get up’ and do things.
Do what you can. Sometimes talking about, writing about, or even researching about topics helps more than people realize. Also given how technology has expanded even in the last 10 years it has given those who cannot participate in the way society deems normal, a voice, and a way to communicate, and participate without overtaxing themselves.